心情...

这四天，
真的觉得时间好漫长，好难过，
站在工作岗位的我，
排着书，
将书本叠起来，
然后将一本一本的书包装好，
我曾试过让自己忙个不停，
还以为这样做便能使自己暂时麻醉了，
可是当我忙完了，
脑里却会挑起那些回忆，
感觉好无奈，好无助，
心情好复杂...

回到了家，
还以为心情已经平复了，
可是当我打开电脑上网时，
却让自己更加的伤心，
我看到了 ！
我也明白了 ！
心就好像生生得被插了一刀，
我忍着内心的伤痛，忍着眼睛的酸泪...

一直以来，
你对我就只有冷漠，
不管我对你多好，
有时我还得装得不在乎似的，
但你的眼神总不会看上我，

这梦拖了已有一段蛮长的时间，
我是否应该醒了 ?
是否放弃这一段我坚持已久的爱情 ?
好想放弃，可是好难...
不想放弃，可是痛苦...

放弃? 坚持?

The Dream of Christmas...

Yippi its 25th December 2008...
and that means its Christmas time !!
dang dang dang....haha...
Today is the joyous and happy day for everyone...haha...sure lar..Christmas worr...gt turkey lar..red wine lar..present lar...with family and friends lar...hahaahaha...
Even today I just stay home for the whole day...but I can actually feel the atmosphere of Christmas..haha...the white winter snows...
For this year Christmas, I had a dream...

A dream that is so childish and funny...
A dream that is seems not to be granted...
A dream that is only for disorientation...
A dream that may not be achieved...
A dream that will soon be forgotten...

This is a dream of mine...
When you woke up , everything is over...
All those are only the imaginations and illusions of ur wills...

圣诞节...
应该是开开心心的...
可是就在今天...
让我看到不想看的， 让我知道我不想知道的事情...
现在的心情是空虚的...
一直不停地为自己找借口...
心中想挽回现时的情况...
一个拖了已久的梦就这样悄悄被敲醒了...
我已好累好累了...
希望这两个月的工作能麻醉及让我想清楚...
真想不到今年的圣诞是这样过的...

Haha...

Well, finish story-ing....
Wish everyone...
Merry Christmas !!
May all your wishes come true...

Trip to Pulau Manukan

Yeah !! At last the STPM exam had finished...
All the tension , stress and pressure is suddenly gone...
In the next day (5/12/2008) , we all moving out for a trip to Pulau Manukan...
It sure was a nice and sunny day...
After everything is prepared , we move to the jetty at Jesselton Point...
Around 8.00am , we aboard the boat and sailed to Manukan Island. The breeze is so nice and comfortable. Everyone was so happy.

Pizzz...

Blown by wind....

After 10 - 15 minutes , we arrived at the Island. This was the second time I being there , the first time was during the Sunset Cruise trip last year. But sure this time was lots more fun.
The sea is clean depth into the seabed , you can clearly seen every single tiny fish swimming in there...its so colourful...

The great scenery at the Manukan Island.

Another angle...

Yu Shiong , Yeeling and Zinlu...

A group pic taken at the pondok...

We settled down our things at the bench...eat something...chit-chat a bit...then lets rocks in the SEA...

Settle down our things...

Under the tree...

Allan !! Wake up !!!

One zombie cover in sands...one half-awakened...

Everyone is so excited getting into the sea...
Although some of us don't know how to swim , they will too join to enjoy the fun...
We dive, swim , observe and even compete with each other...fun !!

Time to swim...

Whether u know how to swim or not..just jump in..SplAsH !!

We too make our way to the Sunset Point around 1350m from the resort...

Chai Fun and Gan at the Sunset Point...

Allan , Potriyan and Noel at the Sunset Point...

On the rock...

Nice pic...

After back from the Sunset Point, we all went to swim for the second round...
Then we had bath and our lunch...

Times to go back ...

Allan , Zinlu , Potriyan and Noel...

Waiting at the jetty...

Bunch of cute fishes...

Fishes eating bread...

Why Laura so alone there ?

Ooo...got Noel at there pulak...haha

Around 2.30pm , the boat had arrived and thats the end of our journey...

Yea...this sure is a pleasure experience...it gives the significance of our friendship and the finale of our high school life...
Thanks God for everything....
Hope this piece of memory will remained forever in everyone's heart....
Thanks Everyone...the best time in my life is the time I spent with u guys...

Bye !

Upper 6 Science 2008.

Zinlu's Birthday...

It was yesterday ( 27/11/2008) that one of our friends , Zinlu , celebrated her 19th birthday...
We are still in the middle of our STPM exam...hahaha...
Anyway, soon after the mathematics paper 2 finish , we all go according to plan..
All the boarders except Allan went back first...
I pretend follow YeeLing's car back home...
Kwong and Noel went to take the birthday cake at his house...
After we all prepared, we all wait at the outside and waited for the signal from Laura (director of the surprise attack)...
Wait...wait...wait...finally the signal is ignited...
We all walk in silently to the compound of the boarding and finally to the living room...
Phil carried the cake and make his steps carefully...
As soon as we arrived at the main door joining the others, we sang the Birthday song...
" Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to zinlu, Happy birthday to you!! "...
Zinlu in the living room looked so surprise and happy...
Yea...after this just let the photos describe all the circumstances...

The birthday cake...too keras...thats why the candles is put at the side...


Phil and Zinlu...



Zinlu making wish"es"...haha



Blowing the candles...haha



Everyone waiting for the cakes...



Zinlu birthday's card...who's there?



Cowboy girl and YeeLing...



Playing chor tai di while waiting for the cakes...haha



Having dinner...3 plates of mee...



Zinlu and Noel...sembayang lar ko...haha

Yea that's it...
Wish her...
Dreams come true and Happy Always...

Exam weeks...

STPM finally arrive !!!
Should I be happy or nervous or regret ??
Haha...somehow I had managed to survive for the pass 3 papers...
still alive now...haha...
No comments for the pass 3 papers >> Pengajian Am 2,Chemistry 2 and Mathematic 1...
Don't ask me as I will not answer about it...hehe...
This is to prevent from dragged by the past...
Just try my best in exam ??..
Yeah that's right..cuba sedaya-upaya saja, jing li jiu ke yi le, zhun li hei zhou, dun give up...bla bla bla...
These words oftenly appear before STPM...haha...
Maybe I should define those words as "words to calm" or reason for not doing well in exam...ahahhaa...
Anyway, it still left us with 5 papers (Physic students) and 4 papers (Bio students)...

Good luck everyone....
Have faith and Try ur best !!!!
Haha....^^

沉静了...

沉静了，安静了...
不知何时，我们之间开始被沉默隔离了...
不再像以前那样那么得融洽...
之间的谈话逐渐减少了...
有时候，当我的眼神移向你时...
我会发现，你的眼睛也在看着我...
说真的，你是在看我吗 ? 还是在看别人 ?
还是只是碰巧而已 ? 还是我自作多情 ?
我们是否以眼神来代替了我们的话语 ?
我不想想太多，怕有了希望最终还是失望...
可能你喜欢的人不是我，
但我依然会在你的身旁支持你...

有一首歌很符合我现在的心情，
沉默秘密...
秘密是不可告人的，
更何况是沉默了的秘密，
沉默的回应是否真的能把伤害调降到最低 ?...

时间

这一天，这一小时，这一分钟，这一秒....
都不会再回头...
3/11/2008...2.47am...这一刻，永远都不会在未来找的到...
就如，我们现在所做的将会为未来带来特定的影响，
蝴蝶效应...
时间记载了我们人生不同的阶段，
珍惜现在，
虽然有时候很多事情不是很顺利，尤其是感情方面，
只要我们坚强，耐心，笑着去面对，
必定会有不同的人生旅程...

Sweet Memories...

Upper 6 Science 08

1st row : Ng,ChaiFun,Eunice,SiawYun,MissVoo,MeiYun,Tan,ZinLu and Yeeling.
2nd row : Gro,Jane,Zul,Laura,YuShiong,Charly,Sha and Ivy.
3rd row : Kong,H,Allan,Kenny,Noel,Pot,Kwong and JJ.

This is our class photo of year 2008...
It had been 564 days (counted to 5th Dec) since the day we meet each other last year in May...
We had gone through a lot together...beach cleaning,old folks,prom,Dota,taidi...^_^!!
The memories is so precious and special that I will never forget it...
It was the symbol of our friendship...
After the STPM,we may not have many chances to meet each other again...
But still,we know that we may not forgetting each other...
In this photo,it keeps the friendship, memories and smile of each and everyone of us...^^
Sometimes, we may not agree to others...but its the bond that remind us to forgive what had one done...

So...ya...the time remains is about 37 days left...everyone keep it up !!
Make all of us proud and glory !!!

有心 ? 无心?

我知道你伤心了，
我好想去安慰你，
可是，我知道这样做只会让你觉得我很烦，
不想再像上次，
差点儿使得我们的友情破裂，
所以，
我选择了，
在心中默默得为你祝福和祷告，
希望你时时都快乐....时时都带着微笑...

Moody...

Today is really a tiring day...
Although I used to sleep late,but it seems that sleep at 3am is not a good idea...
During the first period in school, my exhausted body had pulled me down...although I can maintain my body posture,but I can't maintain my spiritual stamina...in the end zzzz...
And today I didn't talk much...maybe its due to tiredness...
But I know that myself deep in my heart,I am thinking about something else...
Something that I never stop thinking...my thought full of reasons,confuse and imagination...
Yeap...I am thinking about my relationship with her...
Recently,there had been "holes" appeared in my heart that make me doubt about my feeling...
What should I do ???
I had been thinking about this for the past 4 days...
Why should I see that ??...If I never saw it,I should not have uncertainty about myself...

I had lost myself in the middle of desert...the pile of sands had covered up my senses...
But one thing for sure, I will not easily give up on her...

虽然有时候 ， 我们之间会有裂缝出现...
可是我不会应此而放弃...
我会一直等待你...
直到那一天...

Gratitude...感激

I feel grateful of what I have...
I thanks that there is a chance for me to change my life...
I appreciate everyone especially my family and friends...

When I'm happy , thanks for sharing with me...
When I'm sad , thanks for listening to me...
When I'm disorientated , thanks for guiding me...
When I'm stuck , thanks for helping me...

We may be apart from each other one day...
But our relationship may never fade...
No matter what happen , you are still my friend...
The one that can never replaced by anything...

Thank you ~~

The Last Battle...

Thats right...the last and the last examination is coming...STPM...
Well,it only left about 20+ days before the 18th November come...
I'm sure that everyone must be nervous and busy revisioning their subjects...
In the classroom , everyone seems so busy with their books...you can actually feel the tension and stress when you step in even 1/2 inch into the floor of our classroom...
But still all of us manage to reduce stress by all sort of ways...and one of them is...Tai Di !!! It is a convenient and effective way to reduce our stress...haha !!!

Ya...thats all for now...
I wish that everyone will done their best in their exam...although some of us may know that it is impossible to get a parent's expecting results...we must have faith in our heart and move forward...strive the best and the best...show that we can do it too !!!

God Bless You All ^^

p/s: Im in emotion suffering now...due to study and relationship's problems...

Im Back

Yeah !! Thats right...
JJ is back in blogspot....
Sorry for abandon my blog for a really long time...
For the past few months,I had been busy with my homeworks and study...and too there some emotions suffering days which I cant forget...
Anyway,now is the time for me to "reopen" my blog...and all of you are welcome to leave me any comments...

Thanks...

A Trip to Beaufort

25/5/2008...
At last the mid year school holidays had began....a sign of of relaxing...
The first activity we planned to do was trip to Beaufort.
Well, we actually planned this on Saturday (the day before) after the chemistry extra class...
The first thing we did was had breakfast before we start the journey...we went to eat in Melanian in Lintas...we too meet with each other there...we had got Potriyan,Noel,Phil,Kwong,H,Sean and me...
After everything was ready,we then started our "voyage" to Beaufort...
The person who drive was H and Phil (two cars)...
Everything was fine...but on the way from Papar to Beaufort, H was forced to learn "cut" (accelerates the car to overcome other car) because if he didn't do so,we will be so late when reached Beaufort...scary...
Sean and Potriyan (the two pro) was teaching H along the way....while Phil following us at the back...
At last after about one and a half hour drive from KK,we reached Beaufort safely...
We too invited Zinlu, ChaiFun and Allan (Beaufort geng) out to play with us...

At Allan's house...

The first destination we went was "Kim Wah Restaurant"...to fill up our empty stomach first...
Well,something not-expected had happened there...
Potriyan was turning the turner on the table saying that he wanted to play "Truth or Dare"...so he used a pen and stuck it under the Chili bottle...and here he came...he turned the turner...
BAM !!! The pen went flying off..while the Chili too all spilled out aiming Zinlu...cham cham...
Zinlu in the end went back to home and get changed...

Haha...chili day...a memorable one..

Potriyan's vege fried mee...



Fried rice...nice...



Dish of the day...Salad Prawn...



ChaiFun, Zinlu and H...



Allan and Sean...what is Allan laughing about ??



Me,Phil and Noel...all chinese teh...haha..

After we eat,we then went to the CC in Beaufort (forget the name)...apa lagi...Dota lolz..haha..
Ohya,we were supposed to fight with Allan's team but it seemed that some of his member cant make it...so we just play among ourselves...
We had 2-3 matches of DOTA...haha...1st match we win but lose the 2nd match...haizz..
Then, we played CS...wa...more challenging this time..I got killed everytime...haha...still noob in this game...

At the CC...


Phil seemed to be OWNING...hehe...

After played at the CC,we then went to Tasik...yup...lake...

The Beaufort Lake...looked so calm and serene..



One of the facility....



Noel doing exercise...

Later,we then decided to go back to KK as we saw that the there will be raining soon...
At 5.15pm, we reached KK..
We gathered at McDonald to eat and discuss our next destination...
H, Potriyan and Sean will be going to City Mall for a DOTA match but the rest decided to go back home...too tired lolz..haha...

Well, thats it..
Finally,I had completely updated the blog...

"Happy Holiday everyone ! "...

La Salle 50 years Open Day

17/5/2008...
After the tiring teacher's day, the next day was the La Salle 50 years Open Day..
Well,this kind of grand event surely need a lot of early preparation..but the truth was....everything was LAST MINUTE !!! haha...even so...the school managed to make the plan carried put...

Let's talk about what happen that day...
In the early morning, me and my crew (Chinese Dance)...konon...and those silat people first wait at the gate to welcome those higher class people to come...really bored at that time plus the annoying teacher...lolz...

The opening ceremony...



Lion dance...



The liao dance crew...

After that, I went to the Science Lab and started my work there...
I worked as the Assistant for the Chemistry subject...padahal failed chemistry...haha...our project included "How to make ice-cream in fast way ?" and "Salt crystal garden"...
I fall in love with the "Salt crystal"...the day before we had demonstrated it but it seemed that we failed it...but for the salt crystal to grow into shape,we need patient and patient...haha...amazingly when i saw it last Saturday,it had growed into a globe shape..so beautiful...I will post the pics next time...

Salt crystal in water...

Salt crystal....

Back to story,I just sit and watch the people walking over...bored...
Inside the lab, there was also other teams such as the Bio team, Physic team, and others...they were too as bored as us...only that the Physic people managed to get some attraction due to their theory-based games...while the Bio team was displaying the insects samples...gt lipas,kutu,lipan,belalang and much more...

There were a lot of stalls set up...but the food stalls seemed a bit less....can you imagine that there was not enough food to be provided while most of us still holding the RM40 coupon !!!
It was really a shame for a grand event like this....and guess what...the food sold were too expensive...eg : RM 10 for 3 pieces of grilled chicken wing with no taste at all...aiks...failure...
Most of us ending wasting the coupon in buying souveniers (RM 5 each)...
All the satay and mee had earlier cleared their stock...haha...memalukan...
If you had ever been to TTSS's bazaar, then you should know how a bazaar should look like..
Luckily, there was still an baby elephant that can bring happiness to people....but it didn't seem to be happy...apa tidak !! It never rest since the opening and keep walking until 1pm...

One of the displays...snake...

Semangat La Salle...



KwangLing and Simone in the lab...



Ivy holding the "men hua tang"...

After the event,we went for a movie in the evening time..Narnia : The Prince Caspian...
haha...a lot of dota heroes inside the movie...nice lolz...

The macau-style pork burger...nice one...and it is divided into 3 parts...me,H and Allan...haha

p/s : Thanks YuShiong for the pics...